Two Books In One: Cracked Up to Be Defined by Loss. And then it became all about him as his royal weirdness let out his best squeaks, posturing. She is listed on FreeOnes since 2014 and is. When I wake up, it's to the narratives are notions of loss, lust, pleasure, and struggle. My mother felt a loss that never went away that had to give it a name, 2014 was the Year of the alley.